Whoot whoot!!

I get to do a canning party! Ok, I know that most of you are not as excited about this as I am, but I LOVE to cook! So this is a wonderful thing for me! I always wanted to learn how to can, and I even begged James to buy me a kit last year for Christmas. He decided to get me a bread maker instead, but I think I just saved him from having to get me one for my birthday. Lol.

Anyway, I am pretty sure I am going to suck it up and start culinary school next Spring. I have to get all of my other affairs in order first. But yes! Oh yeah! Canning baby. That's what I am talking about. Soon I will have my fresh homemade salsa canned and packed for gifting, and maybe soon selling.

Yummy Updates!

I haven’t blogged in a very long time, so I guess it is time for an update!  Loving the new house, and we are slowly but surely changing things to make it our own. Of course we still have a lot to do, but all in due time. Next up is our kitchen and bathrooms.


I still am not working, although I have been looking. No one seems to want me though. I guess all in due time.

The kids are doing well. William has started his ADHD medication 2 weeks ago, and he is doing a lot better. I think we will have to up his dosage, because it wears off so quickly, but we can still see the difference. Brisa is reading a lot better too. Not much more to report on that end.

In the end, I am hoping more good things are to come. We have a fertility specialist appointment this upcoming Tuesday. Hopefully something good will come out of it. Well when there is more to report, I guess I’ll report it. Write back soon (I hope).

Written For Me

Ever had a song hit you so hard you feel like it was written for you? Well a few know and a few don't that years ago I lost a best friend due to misunderstandings and hurt. It became so screwed up that it was a horrible falling out between us two. I was so very lucky to have my Wookie there to pick up my pieces.

I have tried to reach out to my lost friend maybe twice in the last 2 years. One got ignored, the other got a hateful response about how I was "nothing" and how pretty much I could die and that he would not care. I guess I just needed closure about the whole strange situation that I never got. One would think that because years have past the hurt would fade. It doesn't.

The whole situation caused me severe anxiety disorder that I am still fighting to this day. My life quality has been destroyed because of the whole stupid situation. I despise this person, yet I still want my closure. That's all I ever asked for. Bleh....

Anyway, I came across this song today and I was blown away. I have never listened to Adele before, but I think I will now. The song is beautiful and speaks to me. I've added it to this blog so everyone can listen to it.

Lyrics are below it. Enjoy.



I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl
And you're married now

I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over


Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Shhhhhh.... Did something scary...

I actually sang for James and recorded it! He has been begging me to get over my nerves and sing for him. I guess he must be tone deaf, but I am crazy so it all worked out!

Here's a little bit of info on me: I love to sing, but freak out or freeze when I am around people. I am no professional by any means, so don't judge too harshly. James supposedly loves my singing (it took me years to be able to sing in front of him) and begs for me to sing to him. I have always considered taking lessons to get better but never have. Oh, and I sang in church growing up. That's about it. Don't give the link out to just anybody yet. I'd rather strangers think I'm a fool other than people who actually know me. Lol.

Ok... dare I?? Eeeek!!

Life, or Something Like It

Have you ever lost somebody that you truly cared about to misunderstandings? I believe that there might be a few of you out there who has. I know I have. I have a problem though. My nature prevents me from fully letting go of things, so here I sit sulking on the past and what could have been.

It's a sad problem really. I mean seriously, why can't I just get over it? Believe me when I say that I have tried in vain-on multiple occasions. People have called me stupid for dwelling on things. Seriously, there is no need to. I mean why waste the energy on things you cannot change? Why?!?!?!

Because that's what I do. My sad little existence knows no better. So here I sit, sulking.

I'm going to bed. I need some snuggles from my Wookie.

Ramblings....

I am very lucky to have a husband like James. He is able to get my mind off of the stressful and calm me with just a hug. Still, at times I believe he thinks that I am crazy, and honestly, I don't blame him.

So news on us. We are still waiting for an answer on whether or not we will close on our house either today or tomorrow. Honestly, if everything goes well today, I am thinking more along the line of tomorrow. Of course pessimistic me thinks that everything will go wrong and we will be stuck without a house. Hence why I am so stressed. I will just be happy when we are in our home and no longer waiting on a bank to decide the fate of our dwelling.

Speaking of the house, we drove by there yesterday and it is completely empty. The guy moved out and left all the blinds open. Why? I don't know, but I am sure that we looked like a bunch of crazy stalkers looking in all of the windows. Lol. I am surprised no one called the cops. Better yet, the guy who lives across the street IS a cop. Maybe they know we bought the house??? Eh...

Also over the weekend, we went to browse furniture for the new place and stopped at the book store to relax. We went into Barnes and Noble, got smoothies and hot chocolate, and wandered through the store aimlessly looking at books. Of course my obsession with cook books stopped me at the entrance with the clearance rack, while James and the kids went missing in the store. Still, such a selection! I could buy them all and be as happy as can be. I grabbed a chicken cook book and a vegetarian cook book (for my diet of course) and wandered off to find the family. I found them over in the children's section, and I also found some of the most awesome books ever!!

First: Pink Princess Tea Parties

A cook book dedicated to making an awesome tea party! I want to throw one now.

Second: The Unofficial Harry Potter Cook Book

Recipes from the story?!?! Awesome! No need to say more. :-)

And finally (and I nearly died when I saw this), the most awesome thing EVER:

Zombies vs. Unicorns

Yes it is real. Yes it was in the kid section (I don't know why, but whatever). But I do know that this has to be one of the most awesome books ever thought of! Few know of my zombie obsession, and I might have just found another gem to add to my collection.

I will leave this post for today without any more stress from me, but with the greatness of these books and the cha-ching sound of my credit card going through Amazon.com. Have a good one!

Come on already...

It seems like when everything is going good, something has to go wrong. *sigh* So we might be delayed a little with closing on our new house, which is frustrating on so many levels. But I am still crossing my fingers for some good news.

James has been super busy at work-which is great news! Then again, it hurts not to have him around that much. It kinda makes me wish he wasn't salary and got paid overtime. Lol. Still, a busy person means stability. I hope it stays busy.

Anyway, I was on one of my boards and there is a girl on there that does predictions. I am waiting to see if she can give me a reading. I might be crazy, but I am soooooo curious! Lol. I'll keep you updated. :)