Written For Me

Ever had a song hit you so hard you feel like it was written for you? Well a few know and a few don't that years ago I lost a best friend due to misunderstandings and hurt. It became so screwed up that it was a horrible falling out between us two. I was so very lucky to have my Wookie there to pick up my pieces.

I have tried to reach out to my lost friend maybe twice in the last 2 years. One got ignored, the other got a hateful response about how I was "nothing" and how pretty much I could die and that he would not care. I guess I just needed closure about the whole strange situation that I never got. One would think that because years have past the hurt would fade. It doesn't.

The whole situation caused me severe anxiety disorder that I am still fighting to this day. My life quality has been destroyed because of the whole stupid situation. I despise this person, yet I still want my closure. That's all I ever asked for. Bleh....

Anyway, I came across this song today and I was blown away. I have never listened to Adele before, but I think I will now. The song is beautiful and speaks to me. I've added it to this blog so everyone can listen to it.

Lyrics are below it. Enjoy.



I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl
And you're married now

I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over


Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday it was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over, yeah.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
Don't forget me I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Shhhhhh.... Did something scary...

I actually sang for James and recorded it! He has been begging me to get over my nerves and sing for him. I guess he must be tone deaf, but I am crazy so it all worked out!

Here's a little bit of info on me: I love to sing, but freak out or freeze when I am around people. I am no professional by any means, so don't judge too harshly. James supposedly loves my singing (it took me years to be able to sing in front of him) and begs for me to sing to him. I have always considered taking lessons to get better but never have. Oh, and I sang in church growing up. That's about it. Don't give the link out to just anybody yet. I'd rather strangers think I'm a fool other than people who actually know me. Lol.

Ok... dare I?? Eeeek!!

Life, or Something Like It

Have you ever lost somebody that you truly cared about to misunderstandings? I believe that there might be a few of you out there who has. I know I have. I have a problem though. My nature prevents me from fully letting go of things, so here I sit sulking on the past and what could have been.

It's a sad problem really. I mean seriously, why can't I just get over it? Believe me when I say that I have tried in vain-on multiple occasions. People have called me stupid for dwelling on things. Seriously, there is no need to. I mean why waste the energy on things you cannot change? Why?!?!?!

Because that's what I do. My sad little existence knows no better. So here I sit, sulking.

I'm going to bed. I need some snuggles from my Wookie.