Ramblings....

I am very lucky to have a husband like James. He is able to get my mind off of the stressful and calm me with just a hug. Still, at times I believe he thinks that I am crazy, and honestly, I don't blame him.

So news on us. We are still waiting for an answer on whether or not we will close on our house either today or tomorrow. Honestly, if everything goes well today, I am thinking more along the line of tomorrow. Of course pessimistic me thinks that everything will go wrong and we will be stuck without a house. Hence why I am so stressed. I will just be happy when we are in our home and no longer waiting on a bank to decide the fate of our dwelling.

Speaking of the house, we drove by there yesterday and it is completely empty. The guy moved out and left all the blinds open. Why? I don't know, but I am sure that we looked like a bunch of crazy stalkers looking in all of the windows. Lol. I am surprised no one called the cops. Better yet, the guy who lives across the street IS a cop. Maybe they know we bought the house??? Eh...

Also over the weekend, we went to browse furniture for the new place and stopped at the book store to relax. We went into Barnes and Noble, got smoothies and hot chocolate, and wandered through the store aimlessly looking at books. Of course my obsession with cook books stopped me at the entrance with the clearance rack, while James and the kids went missing in the store. Still, such a selection! I could buy them all and be as happy as can be. I grabbed a chicken cook book and a vegetarian cook book (for my diet of course) and wandered off to find the family. I found them over in the children's section, and I also found some of the most awesome books ever!!

First: Pink Princess Tea Parties

A cook book dedicated to making an awesome tea party! I want to throw one now.

Second: The Unofficial Harry Potter Cook Book

Recipes from the story?!?! Awesome! No need to say more. :-)

And finally (and I nearly died when I saw this), the most awesome thing EVER:

Zombies vs. Unicorns

Yes it is real. Yes it was in the kid section (I don't know why, but whatever). But I do know that this has to be one of the most awesome books ever thought of! Few know of my zombie obsession, and I might have just found another gem to add to my collection.

I will leave this post for today without any more stress from me, but with the greatness of these books and the cha-ching sound of my credit card going through Amazon.com. Have a good one!

Come on already...

It seems like when everything is going good, something has to go wrong. *sigh* So we might be delayed a little with closing on our new house, which is frustrating on so many levels. But I am still crossing my fingers for some good news.

James has been super busy at work-which is great news! Then again, it hurts not to have him around that much. It kinda makes me wish he wasn't salary and got paid overtime. Lol. Still, a busy person means stability. I hope it stays busy.

Anyway, I was on one of my boards and there is a girl on there that does predictions. I am waiting to see if she can give me a reading. I might be crazy, but I am soooooo curious! Lol. I'll keep you updated. :)

Starting Over

So of course I have not blogged in a while. So many things have happened to me lately, I just have not had the time. I decided that because James and I have moved on to a new chapter in our life, that I should start my blog over. Of course we moved to the Houston area, and because this is a new start for us, it will be a new start for me here. New, new, new…..

So many things have crossed our paths recently—some good, some bad. I am slowly coming to the realization that life cannot always be straight and narrow for long. It is almost like I am being teased with what I could have, and then shown that just because I can have it doesn’t mean I will. Not too many people know that James and I finally got pregnant, only to suffer a devastating loss. No matter how hard I try, it is still extremely hard to talk about. The whole process is excruciatingly painful. I am still praying to god for a chance to let it happen again—only to stick and give us a beautiful baby this time. Also, sometimes dreams just do not work out. I’ve learned to be realistic.

I shouldn’t be too upset though. We have had a lot of blessings happen also. James finally got a job after being out of work for a year. I, more than anything, wanted him happy. Drawing is what makes him happy. He is a good man and the best thing that has ever happened to me—I think he deserves it. We were blessed with a loving family who gave us a house and enabled us to have a jumpstart on our future together. We are even more blessed to have been able to sell the house in this horrible economy, even if we did not get close to what we wanted for it. We were lucky that it was just enough to pay off all (and I mean ALL) of our bills and leave us some for a decent down payment on another house (which we found and close in January on).

Even though I feel life throws us curveballs at times, I try to look at my family and what I do have. I thank God every day for everything he has given me. Others are not as lucky to be given what we have. I am closer to my family whom I missed terribly. I still have not forgiven myself for not being around when I lost my grandmother. My heart still aches for her loss.

I guess my point being is that I should not complain. Everything happens for a reason. James losing his job got us here, me going down the wrong path eventually led to me finding James and having my beautiful children, and finally understanding true love. Never give up and never let the bad get you down.